what a week

(and looking into your eyes is my escape from the world)

sometimes the only escape to the bad stuff is thinking or feeling you.
alot of unfortunate things happen.and i was staying at venus place for 4 days
honestly i was very well taken care of by her mum and venus.
like when i did closing venus would wait up for me till i get home like at 2am
and make sure i got food to eat.
sometimes it feels nice to be looked after
well venus was truly family this 4 days
and thanks to her cute mum and funny brothers/
im back home
and yes i miss my bed
bet venus misses her's too.
things have finally settled and life
goes on.
recently things have been rather weird for me
and i cant identify or know what im feeling
i know that i dont think of anyone but you still
but i feel weird around someone new.
anyway life goes on.
and i just want to let these small feelings go
before i get hurt.

i still miss you
and i just want it to stop
people asked
if i knew it wld be this hard now
would i have stopped it from happening
i guess i figured the answer
i rather had one experience with you
then a whole lifetime without it.



i still love you.