its been long

well its been sometime since i blogged.
i guess i just been caught up.
today i kind off feel like letting things out.
2010 has been great so far.things have been slow.
work, fun, church, tv ,movies and the cycle repeats itself.
i like work and sometimes its annoying.but i know people there are great
and nice and fun.im just getting use to it.

things have been rather rough lately.
like maybe i dont want things to go too fast.
like i dont want to face reality
or i am stopping myself from seeing it.
either way its beating the shit out of me.

i cant believe i am sacrificing my faith for my family
and 3 years is a long time.its painful and sad


sometimes maybe people dont get anything
and its better not to tell sometimes.
i rather build walls nowdays
then have to deal with people not understanding
its only when you know how to feel how that person is feeling
you would understand.if you dont..then dont freeking judge
dont make it seem like it is not and issue cause to that person its everything.

i tried asking myself a million questions today..
but i found no answers.
i think ill leave it up to god.
and ill just pray.

and when we meet,im sure we will,all that was there
wlll be there still,ill let it pass and hold my tongue and you will think that i moved on




at one point your were that wonderwall.
now you are what i am today.