positiveness!

i read something on atika's blog just now and it really made alot of sense
when you focus on things you dont want the things you dont want will never disappear.
so why am i focusing on things i dont want.
my priorities will be studying and getting my dreams.
and i am going to pray hard and ask god to help me be focused and not let matters of the heart take control of me.
i cant do that.
i am going to focus on the things i want.i am going to focus on the big things coming for me
and i am going to focus on being a good kid and being good in things i do.
i just have to fill my mind with what i got to do.it would take me away from thinking about sad and unwanted things.
so what i got to do is to
STUDY
when i want to avoid the bad stuff
just get occupied with work
and PRAY
to me church is the most peaceful place on earth.
because all the shit load of crap thats taunting your head
suddenly doesnt seem to be there bothering you.
somehow when you leave ,you feel lighter.
sony mcdreamy
id ont even know why i liked that name.
its not only because i absoulutely love patrick dempsey in greys anatomy
but because i am a kid who never wants to stop dreaming
there is so much ahead
so much more things to feel and experience
why gloat over your missing oppourtunites now
why gloat over the heartbreaks of love
when you know that there is something better coming along the way

we are defined by our opportunities ,even the ones we missed.

i know i love you
and if thats all we can take.
if me knowing it is enough
then just let it be.