i really feel so helpless.

you know i really feel helpless.

i really feel like this idiot who just cant do anything for you.

i really feel like someone who prob doesnt mean anything to you.

you know i really feel the pain more and more and more.

you know i am tired of being around this.you know i am tired of not being able to do anything for you.

you know my heart hurts so bad.
you know your clouding up my mind
i cant think,i cant do anything,i just stand and worry.
it hurt me today.
and it'll hurt me from now on
i am sick and tired and i cant do anything without thinking of you.
please stop sitting so hard on my chest with everything u do.

what would you know
when u just see right through me!

haiz u know when i feel so mad,sad ,happy or just useless.

i just go and sit infront of jacko and watch him sleep.
the way he just peacefully sleeps calms me.
and then i tell him whatever that is running through my head.
and somehow he seems like he is listening and actually understanding me.
and i just feel better.i mean he doesnt have to say anything.but by just not saying anything
he just gives me all the answers i need.
the thing abt a dog.
they dont care if ur a good kid bad kid,if ur ugly,gorgeous,fat or skinny
they still love you anyway.
they still make you feel like your are the only world to them.
only a pet could make u feel that extraordinary.they dont loose faith in you.
they dont hold a grudge after u scold them or shout at them.they wld still come running to u
wagging their tails.thats how a dog is.they never stop loving you.
jacko he is getting old.and nowdays he is pretty much blind and he cant walk properly.
my heart hurts seeing him like that.
everyday while he is sleeping i have to check if he is still breathing.
i say good nite to both jacko and barney .and i say good morning to them.
before i leave the house i tell them.
they are everything to me.
and today i just want to say .the most peaceful time in my day
is in the night when i say goodnight to my dogs and watch them sleep.

they say a mans best friend is a dog.
that line suddenly is so true
i love you jacko boy.
please if your going to leave this world soon
make sure you go when i am around boy.
you are the best problem listener i ever had
and the best dog.