next week is maths prelims

ms shyam said to my class

"this is reality u guys know ur prelims i am expecting only six passers from
your class"

class 4/6: quiet

we all are like kinda scared for prelims..the other prelim paper which we all tried
there was only 1 passer out of 42

gosh when we hear that it can really bring us down

evryones on their asses working towards something

now its that period

its that period....
where we all realise we want to achieve something

my class seems to be the only one out of the nlevels or olevels

and sometimes people think we are damn free

honestly we are not...2 subjects for olevels plus,end of year plus common test...

its still something.....i dunno y sometimes i just doze off during lessons like my eyes is looking at the bored but my minds somewhere else

how do i stop that?

reality likes to bites our asses in the most painful ways

gosh i wish sometimes i really only had two istead of 4 human beings watching my back

sometimes i really wish i din have to please all of them at the same time

parents ......................cant deal with them right now

got too much on my mind already

i am soo exhausted...and seriously

the anger fills my gutts evryday
that i feel like literally
ripping ur heart out!
and tearing u in to pieces!


DENIAL
SAME WORD.

its not a river

its a sea full of it

but how do u stop urself from drowning in it