the last day of 2008

its the last day of the year 2008.

so i think this post would be a little emo.

cause right now.thinking of this year.

i wish i did somethings differently.

its so fast ....the people i love are leaving.

i dreaded this day since the end of 2007.

i dreaded saying goodbye.i am not very good at it.

before i met this people.i was lost and insecure.

i was angry and sad.and after that ,my sec school life took a big turn.

it may not have been smooth.but i never have been happier.

i never knew i could be happy.this year.
its was so hard.so so hard.

and i wish i did things differently.

i may want to forget all the bad things.but i dont wanna forget the good times and the fun time

every bit,being in band,being a memek.

for the first time in my life...after i met them..for the first time i din feel invisible.

i learned to love,and cry for love and taste the suckiest things of love ,friendship.
i am changed.

and when i was lyingon the floor..when i was down on the dirt

where were u?? where were u?? when everything was falling apart
all my days spend by the handphone that never rang.
all i needed was a call that never came.
a text that i never recieved


the people i loved stayed...

i dont need people to survive...
but the one things true abt me.i will take care of the people i love
i wld take care of hem.
no matte how much they neglect me..
no matter how much they hurt me
cause they are myfamily and people i love
my friends.
they stood by me when i was in shit hole lot of crap

there are three things that are more impt than my own life

family,2nd family,love

to my step mom
you really hurt me yest and i learned my lesson
dont love someone too much
they hurt u in the end
love has the power to break somebody


its just a little late
i din have to wait so long
to not see all the people i care abt infront of me
maybe its too emo

but this people changed me

and i dont wanna lose them.

even if they move on.
they go on in their lives
ill always take care of them
ill always will be there

i dont need people to survive in ths world
but when i love i care.