cant stop the feeling

And how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

would you tell me how can it be anybetter than this?

you calm the storms.

sometimes it better to just let it all go.even the memories

this week has been gloomy fun and boring.
mixed feeling i guess.
venus has been sick.hope she is better and is fine
school hasnt been the same for 5 days without her.
kept missing that pigs lame jokes and how she brightens my days
well her health is more important.
hope she takes care.

sometimes i feel
whats the point
you try so hard to get people to understand what your feeling
but they cant
its not easy to understand
cause its my own feelings but seriously
if they did they would see on my part i am so tired of everything in my life ready
all i want to do is just study and not disappoint the people i love
not disappoint memeks
not disappoint mummy and daddy
not disappoint the teachers who are helping me
and lastly not disappoint you

quiet but i am sure there is something here
tell me eveything cause i want to hear.
you know when these days seem tough and hurting
i just close my eyes and think abt one thing that makes me want to
be strong again
and at that moment
all i see its you

time flies
i suddenly dont want to leave sec school
because i feel attached to the memories css has given me so far:(
the more i think about the more it makes me not want to go.


today?
not a bad day at all...........

national day-memeks day-homies day -meixis birthday

what a great weekend.many things tried to ruine my mood during this weekend.

but in the end of the day i knew my memeks would make that [pain just vanish.

so thursday was meixis suprise birthday party things turned out pretty good haha

vincent failed at being and organiser haha but we all still had a wonderful time.

meixi and vincent have somehow grown on to me.i mean they are two really cute people

that really make my life so much more brighter in school.i appreciate them so much and i think

i dont mind going the extra mile to do things for them like helping out in the birthday celebrations.

very sweet people.and i feel very blessed.
friday for national day in school
even though it felt like containment it was really fun with class 5/1 and dearest dengs dengs.
it was a great day and i had alot of sweet moments to remember of that day when i leave css.
later went out with homies to watch UP 3D.
wow it was so awesome hanging out with them.suddenly you just feel so happy and high
the movie was awesome.sooo cute and funny
me and venus were like laughing at the same lame jokes haha
dunno y arh haha
i teared at some parts i guess i was somehow touched.haha
and as usual the skeptist vincent had alot of things to say like the 3D thing wasnt good enough
haha very cute
he really shld be a critic .

so then after that we decided to grab ice cream.
WARNING NEVER EAT ICECREAM WITH HOMIES
ITS LIKE HAVING A WAR!
haha we bought one tub and vince and macy were like fighting with each other for the strawberry and lemon side.
me and venus couldnt eat our icecream in peace

so friday ended with a bang ...went home and thought abt the beautiful day i had and smiled before i went to bed.
i got so much to thank god.for all the great people i have as friends


saturday was boring and terrible
like i said.saturday was the day that made me feel like thw worst idiot in the world

well i rather talk about sunday
sunday went for atikas bro wedding then celebrated venus and bobos birthday with memeks
then watched the ndp.
we even got to see a guy propose to his gf after the ndp screening ended haha it was so amazing to see that in singapore
anyway watching the fireworks and singing ndp songs with memeks
the word HOME
suddenly had alot of meaning
they said home is where your heart is
well my heart is where memeks were
yesturday we had our arms around each other watching the fireworks
and i just knew
i was home
the pain the anger the constant worry
it just vanished
and you just feel peace happiness and love
YES LOVE
lots and lots of LOVE
because it wasnt anyone else
it was memeks

i love you guys so much

pictures and all will be posted.this is just what happen
during this beautiful weekend
even though it had its pain
this national day was the best i ever had
this weekend was the best

i just wonder to myself
can you live a facade
can you choose to live your life in a lie
can you choose to hide the emotions and feeling you have
reality is hard its asskicking and its heart poking
but ill deal with it
when the one you thought understood
punch you so hard in the heart
that its so hard to recover from the pain
just got to let it go right?

we are all built to make mistakes
sometimes its hard to avoid making the mistake
sometimes we do it not on purpose but because it has become who we are

i guess your words would be edged deep
and ill try not to forget it
meet the whole new me
you should be damn bloody happy now right

when i'm down on the dirt i think of my inspiration
so seriously ...what the hell do you want me to do now?
what the hell do you want me to be?
cause i'm done being something to you