stranger

in that one second and that one word

u made me a stranger

the one person who held ur hand when u cried

the one person u wld call when u felt like dying

u made me a stranger..

for all the mistakes i done

i never meant to hurt u

in that one second i become the one who is alone

in that one second i watched u walk away

and today it hurt the most

u walked away with my family...

i always told u...ill never leave u

and u once said u wont wanna lose me

but now i am heart broken

and devastated

and there is no more happiness ,love or jokes laughter left in me

i have become empty

and hardened

no more meaning in life

Its like my soul is burning

To my dear genuis memek

i never meant to hurt u or say all those jealousy stuff

i never meant to say that ...it was all so stupid..

and it only came out cause i was so upset that u were talking abt me behind my back

but i knew u never meant to harm me

i was so stupid to over react

but the things that came out..i din think before i said it

i want ro tell u i am sry

i made an error

i made a mistake that was so stupid

and i knew it hurt u
and i knew i deserve whatevers happining to me now

ill take the punishment

ill take the pain

and friend

its hurting real bad...

ia m sry
not only have i lost u

i HOPE U FORGIVE ME...
I HOPE U FORGIVE THIS DUMB FAMILY MEMBER
I HOPE WE WILL ALWAYS BE FAMILY

i lost my poultry

the one true meaning in my life

the one person...i had wished to give evrything to

Must Let Go

For all the mistakes i made.....for all the things i said wrong

this was the biggest mistake of my life...

and i just cant accept it.....

i am sorry....for all that came out from my mouth that shldnt have...

why did u have to give up on me friend...y did u have to push me away

at one point of time u held on to me very tight and u said u dont want to make a mistake

by just letting me go like that.....my words were harsh when i said we shldnt be friends any more

ia m sry i hurt u.ia m sry i made u mad.....u wew the best thng that has ever happen to me in my life

and in 1 day how can i lose all that

can u friend?

do u forget that i was always on ur side....do u forget those times we spent together and had fun

did u forget those times when u were sick..and i came to c u

i only did it for u

u mean the world to me

and evryone knows it

and this isnt the way things shld end...

no one can take my place friend

no one

i made a mistake friend

i disappointed u

just like how u had disappointed me be4 and i knew u never meant it

i know u care for me alot friend..and i always knew u did

u said u wont leave me

but now uhave left me

ia m not perfect friend....but in both our live we always over saw each others imperfection

y did u see this one

i am truely sry friend

i never meant to do it or make things the way they are now..

ia m sry friend....i really am


and lastly to .......

i loved u....i always have i always will
its been a pinful path....but i know u cant let me go
my love for u is blind...

first sis is leaving!

my first sister is leaving this saturday haiz some how i feel very saour family is going to be smaller somehow......

some pics taken on be urself day

my sis at her UWC graduation ,she did a speech..

so proud of her

my sis and her UWC friends

and my dear second sister

ms shyama nair!

u know arh sometimes i really miss u alot

even tough i was sometimes a pain in ur life hahaha

but arh i love u alot actually

and now ur so happy in L.A

ishq bina!

you have only heard of love


and i......

have actually loved:D

feeling gloomy

today was so boring...i just couldnt take lessons after lessons

going on and on ..and plus emaths mock test which i felt went okay

i told myself to give my 110 percent in maths

atika was right i have one more year and the time i have must be put in to good use

thats LEARNING TO LOVE MATHS!

like how i love korean dramas ,lee da hae,OC ,greys anatomy and FRIENDS!

ill learn to love maths

haiz today i just felt sad......

dunno y.....i guess its because half my pals are doing prelims and i dont get to see them

haha but i really like learn how to miss them now

and you..................................................

you make me feel sooooooooooooo sad sometimes

you make me feel so helpless sometimes

you make me think and feel like u dont give a shit abt me sometimes

you make me feel like losing myself sometimes

you make go crazy and mad over small things sometimes

and just cause i miss you so much......like soo much

and the funny thing is...one person like u

can make me feel so many things

and i guess we both know each other we are damn good at keeping emotions inside

ill be seeing u soon...

i promise....

hate the fact that i miss u alot

just wanna scream

the feeling when ur just so sick and tired and u just wanna scream ...

i exactly feel like that now...

memeks will remember last year when i got my mid year result how all of us just went infront

of the resevoir and we just screamed our hearts out

ill always remember how good it felt after that ...

like the pain was half gone

i wanna do dat again i wanna go to the reservoir and throw stones and scream...

u know y

coz honestly i am a damn rotten person ,who cares but acts like i dont care

whose so weak inside but puts on a tough face outside

whose such a loser...trying to ignore the one thing true in my life

i am god damn rotten...

whose is an asshole to let someone suffer pain alone

and that person is so good at hiding it that half

the time i dont know!

but know i do...i read something...

i am sry but u dont always half to keep half the things inside

and act all happy so that people think ur a happy person]

i nevver fell for that

i know who u turely are......

and thats the person i love.....

but i am sry...i am a very rotten person...

i am sry that i am a very bad person....

and has been forgetting u....and not thinking abt how u are

and act like i am not thinking

but actually i am

24 hours a day

regular day

schools such a drag.........and i am learning to live with it

anyw,haikal and nash right ...even though they realli can be assholes sometimes...but seriously

they make lessons more fun lar

and my class just loves to make lessons fun..


today haikals darn stuupid lar.....

he was smsing me when we are sitting in the same class ..haha loser

and then i got a slap from him today ......coz i kept repeating the word DUMBO to him..

until he couldnt take it hahaha....anyway all the girls were on my side today

coz not only has he slapped me umtim times he slap rima,shihui,en qi and he has punched us

hahaha he is stupid lar...

anyw enough abt him..

4/5 thanks for lending us ur classroom ....coz now we finally have a projector that works

and 4/5 u really have to clean ur classroom!

haha

am so tired of missing you

wish i din have to bother abt u or think of u

but i always doo

haizzzzz miss you ssoooo much

sick

got up this morning thinking that ill be heading to school

and then i had like a really bad tummy ach

and the pain hurt like hell

so decided i couldnt go to school

stayed at home...studied and watched FRIENDS

gosh i love friends lar

it really makes my day

chandlers jokes are like sooo me.....

and i realise that joey is soo venus

phoebe is soooooooooo y.j

and i realise i absolutely love rachel green!
she is soo sweet lar....and funny and sometimes soo bimbo....

ross and rachel are like so meant for each other since season 1


i just wish they wld air friends again man...

joey:i can be nineteen right?

chandler:yes joe on a scale of 1 to 10 ,10 being the dumbest a person can be
ur definetly 19!

hahaha that was funny!

anyw ....point is friends always made my day

i gotta do well for vectors test....

have been studying damn hard for it

its like the first maths test that i like really studied

next year am going america for hols! woohoo

and then 2 years later i am gettting out of this place and going there!

memeks this is for u!


and one day when i get my o.c house.....

youll be there tooo

and then ull say to me ...ia m glad that things worked out...

and my reply wld be

it was all for u

I have that feeling we'll be close for a very long time

ITS UP TO U to believe me or not

the things that make who we are is the chices we make

if we choose to believe that something good will happen it will

its the choice u make

sick!

hidden secrets

hidden secrets....


evryone has their own hidden secrets...

the way they are to you and all may be just a facade ...

you wont know what they are actually thinking or feeling

if they are pretending ,or just being damn oblivious...

anyway....i have my own share of those hidden secrets

sometimes its scary not to know how someone else is actually feeling

but thats y i like this game ....cause u can make someone think something

but ur actually feeling another.......and ur darn stupid ....u think i dunno what ur feeling

i am just being oblivious 2!

sweets!
took so long to reply me yeaturday arh
i got so worried...
and y do u always make me feel guilty when i am out with someone else
haha your so weird when ur jealous
i know i act like i dont care abt u now
but someday i might okay
just wait for me....

nair is crazy

conversation with a friend

painting rosy pics of the future!

dream on nair....


but i still believe

still believe when ur trying to move along and forget?

ur going nuts nair!



i am not!

because

i believe ,because i have been wanting this since sec 2!

and i am not going to let my future crumble!

for love?

NO WAY!

for that person?

no!

then y?

for what i believe
in and for what i love




ill be fine ...dont worry

do u love nair?

...................................................................................................



and my silence told that person

evrything

L.O.V.E

love is something you cant deny...

sometimes its drives u crazy hahaha

but when u got it

ur goals and aims change direction

and the colour red starts to look nice

you start laughing at things that are really not funny

and u start smiling ....more....

things start to seem brighter...

and all day ,all min .....one persons name wld be on your mind


a little something dedicated to my sis and her new wedded husband

congrates!

denial

all i need is the air i breath and a place to rest my head

today was be yourself day

cornets finally got their section T

which looked really good

today just wasnt my day

hmmm

denial

heard of that very word?

the word which evryone goes thorugh in their life

u think that evrythings fine...that u dont feel anything

but honestly ur just denying to urself

u denying the way you feel denying the situation

denying your own heart

exactly how i am feeling

b4 u noe it BAM!

u realise you cant be in this stupid denial forever

...you are undeniable


the one person i wish to give my whole heart to

maynot be the person to see it




and friend

i really wanted to spend time with u
out of all days today too
i was looking forward to it
dont doubt that
i always want time with u
pls dont doubt that

say by one republic

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted


Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold