i am proud of myself

SO we all got to start from somewhere
this is two of my favourite quotes from the pursuit of happiness

chris gardner: it was right then when i started thinking about thomas jefferson and the declaration of independence and the part about our right to life,liberty and the pursuit of happiness and i remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something we can only pursue and maybe we can never actually have it no matter what.how did he know that?

chris gardner:Hey dont ever let somebody tell you that you cant do something,not even me alright? you got a dream you got to protect it.people cant do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you cant do it.if you want something ,go get it..PERIOD!

everytime i watch this movie ..my hair stands when he say that..because it is so true..why should we care what people think.why should we care if they say its to tough or you cant get it.its our dream ...we got to protect it..and its soo true...happiness,it doesnt come just like that
we got to pursue it..:) THIS IS FOR THE PEOPLE who feel that you cant gety where you want to cause someone says your not smart enough or not good enough..
dont listen to them..fight for it :D


today is the first day i went for a run after a long time





and you know what...i feel really good





everytime i tell myself i want to go for a run





i end up getting lazy,today i told myself i am just going to go no matter what





it feels good..after the three months of unhealthy things i did





i finally have got back on the horse and i am getting my stamina back.





so i am going to continue this good habit.





anyway my plan now is to pick up good reading habits and to broaden my knowledge





this is not only to do well for my english olevels but to learn more about issues that are important today.





so i hope i keep this good habit ...and be consistent :)

your smile

one that i can never easily forget

one thats always in my mind

one that calms the worst days

:)

DAY OUT WITH MEMEKS
WAS GOOD:D

positiveness!

i read something on atika's blog just now and it really made alot of sense
when you focus on things you dont want the things you dont want will never disappear.
so why am i focusing on things i dont want.
my priorities will be studying and getting my dreams.
and i am going to pray hard and ask god to help me be focused and not let matters of the heart take control of me.
i cant do that.
i am going to focus on the things i want.i am going to focus on the big things coming for me
and i am going to focus on being a good kid and being good in things i do.
i just have to fill my mind with what i got to do.it would take me away from thinking about sad and unwanted things.
so what i got to do is to
STUDY
when i want to avoid the bad stuff
just get occupied with work
and PRAY
to me church is the most peaceful place on earth.
because all the shit load of crap thats taunting your head
suddenly doesnt seem to be there bothering you.
somehow when you leave ,you feel lighter.
sony mcdreamy
id ont even know why i liked that name.
its not only because i absoulutely love patrick dempsey in greys anatomy
but because i am a kid who never wants to stop dreaming
there is so much ahead
so much more things to feel and experience
why gloat over your missing oppourtunites now
why gloat over the heartbreaks of love
when you know that there is something better coming along the way

we are defined by our opportunities ,even the ones we missed.

i know i love you
and if thats all we can take.
if me knowing it is enough
then just let it be.

Teachers day

wishing all the teachers out there a very happy teachers day.

you guys make us what we are today.

so anyway yesturday was an awesome day.

even though i didnt get to sleep much cause i was doing last minute mugging

i still manage to remember some stuff for physics

i dont think prelims have gone great

BUT i still have lost my mojo yet i just got my engine warming up.

so anyway i gave my two favourite teachers in the world a teachers day gift

these two people really has helped me so much and i really appreciate them alot.

hope they like their gifts.

seeing memeks in css was soo awesome

i mean it was fun being around our batch peeps

so after seeing the teachers and all memeks decided to head to chevrons to play FUSEBALL!

i love fuseball man
esp with those idiots
as usual dear miss ahchoo had other plans

but it was fun ....after that the people who could eat grabbed a snack at hans and we all sat down and talked
as usual the talk time was good.

okay seriously
its either your dumb,oblivious or you just cant think straight
your contradicting yourself in so many ways
and the stupid thing is
you dont even need to do this
your just screwing things for your ownself
and then later you get emo
what is the point
jeez
i really wonder if your happy now
stop living in this box where you think
what your doing is going to make everything better
stop pretending your life away,
you disgust me sometimes.




anyway
you meet many different people in your life
some people stay and some people go.
the ones who were gone should mean nothing to you
should be taken off your memories and mind.
but you
i hope you live in my memories for a long long time
and i hope your one person who stays

cant stop the feeling

And how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

would you tell me how can it be anybetter than this?

you calm the storms.

sometimes it better to just let it all go.even the memories

this week has been gloomy fun and boring.
mixed feeling i guess.
venus has been sick.hope she is better and is fine
school hasnt been the same for 5 days without her.
kept missing that pigs lame jokes and how she brightens my days
well her health is more important.
hope she takes care.

sometimes i feel
whats the point
you try so hard to get people to understand what your feeling
but they cant
its not easy to understand
cause its my own feelings but seriously
if they did they would see on my part i am so tired of everything in my life ready
all i want to do is just study and not disappoint the people i love
not disappoint memeks
not disappoint mummy and daddy
not disappoint the teachers who are helping me
and lastly not disappoint you

quiet but i am sure there is something here
tell me eveything cause i want to hear.
you know when these days seem tough and hurting
i just close my eyes and think abt one thing that makes me want to
be strong again
and at that moment
all i see its you

time flies
i suddenly dont want to leave sec school
because i feel attached to the memories css has given me so far:(
the more i think about the more it makes me not want to go.


today?
not a bad day at all...........

national day-memeks day-homies day -meixis birthday

what a great weekend.many things tried to ruine my mood during this weekend.

but in the end of the day i knew my memeks would make that [pain just vanish.

so thursday was meixis suprise birthday party things turned out pretty good haha

vincent failed at being and organiser haha but we all still had a wonderful time.

meixi and vincent have somehow grown on to me.i mean they are two really cute people

that really make my life so much more brighter in school.i appreciate them so much and i think

i dont mind going the extra mile to do things for them like helping out in the birthday celebrations.

very sweet people.and i feel very blessed.
friday for national day in school
even though it felt like containment it was really fun with class 5/1 and dearest dengs dengs.
it was a great day and i had alot of sweet moments to remember of that day when i leave css.
later went out with homies to watch UP 3D.
wow it was so awesome hanging out with them.suddenly you just feel so happy and high
the movie was awesome.sooo cute and funny
me and venus were like laughing at the same lame jokes haha
dunno y arh haha
i teared at some parts i guess i was somehow touched.haha
and as usual the skeptist vincent had alot of things to say like the 3D thing wasnt good enough
haha very cute
he really shld be a critic .

so then after that we decided to grab ice cream.
WARNING NEVER EAT ICECREAM WITH HOMIES
ITS LIKE HAVING A WAR!
haha we bought one tub and vince and macy were like fighting with each other for the strawberry and lemon side.
me and venus couldnt eat our icecream in peace

so friday ended with a bang ...went home and thought abt the beautiful day i had and smiled before i went to bed.
i got so much to thank god.for all the great people i have as friends


saturday was boring and terrible
like i said.saturday was the day that made me feel like thw worst idiot in the world

well i rather talk about sunday
sunday went for atikas bro wedding then celebrated venus and bobos birthday with memeks
then watched the ndp.
we even got to see a guy propose to his gf after the ndp screening ended haha it was so amazing to see that in singapore
anyway watching the fireworks and singing ndp songs with memeks
the word HOME
suddenly had alot of meaning
they said home is where your heart is
well my heart is where memeks were
yesturday we had our arms around each other watching the fireworks
and i just knew
i was home
the pain the anger the constant worry
it just vanished
and you just feel peace happiness and love
YES LOVE
lots and lots of LOVE
because it wasnt anyone else
it was memeks

i love you guys so much

pictures and all will be posted.this is just what happen
during this beautiful weekend
even though it had its pain
this national day was the best i ever had
this weekend was the best

i just wonder to myself
can you live a facade
can you choose to live your life in a lie
can you choose to hide the emotions and feeling you have
reality is hard its asskicking and its heart poking
but ill deal with it
when the one you thought understood
punch you so hard in the heart
that its so hard to recover from the pain
just got to let it go right?

we are all built to make mistakes
sometimes its hard to avoid making the mistake
sometimes we do it not on purpose but because it has become who we are

i guess your words would be edged deep
and ill try not to forget it
meet the whole new me
you should be damn bloody happy now right

when i'm down on the dirt i think of my inspiration
so seriously ...what the hell do you want me to do now?
what the hell do you want me to be?
cause i'm done being something to you