ngee ann poly

i went for the np open house today.

it wasnt as great as 08.
but i think it was good i went.
i mean i know what i want to do.

and how badly i want it.

walking into the school of film and media studies.i just knew its me
i just knew i got great passion for it.
i like the media bubble.
and now thinking abt it.i really really want this badly.
media culture is something i feel i can adapt to and be part of.
NOT ALOT OF PEOPLE HAVE IT IN THEM.
but seeing it and doing journalism before .
i know i got a future.
and i know i will push all the way to america.
to achieve my last dream.

venus .yj andleeling came along.
many many dumb things happen.
really made me laugh and enjoy myself.
leeling esp.
haiz...life seems to be a long road ahead.
destiny seems to be something that isnt easy to find.

venus said something nice today
"i dont have to be every thing to everyone,but i wish to be something to someone"
haha she heard it from somewhere.

i wish to be something to my mum.
someday.and someday too to someone i love

hold your own

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

the reason why i put this song lyrics.
it means alot to me.
it explains what i am facing now.
knowing who i am.

i need to get over things.
its very difficult.
and i hope god helps me
pls help me.
to let it go.
justit go.live my life...please.i wanna
find love find happiness.
i need to be strong.i need to let go
LET GO NAIR.LET GO!
go my own way.
everything will be fine
hold my own.

being strong.can do better than this

the last day of 2008

its the last day of the year 2008.

so i think this post would be a little emo.

cause right now.thinking of this year.

i wish i did somethings differently.

its so fast ....the people i love are leaving.

i dreaded this day since the end of 2007.

i dreaded saying goodbye.i am not very good at it.

before i met this people.i was lost and insecure.

i was angry and sad.and after that ,my sec school life took a big turn.

it may not have been smooth.but i never have been happier.

i never knew i could be happy.this year.
its was so hard.so so hard.

and i wish i did things differently.

i may want to forget all the bad things.but i dont wanna forget the good times and the fun time

every bit,being in band,being a memek.

for the first time in my life...after i met them..for the first time i din feel invisible.

i learned to love,and cry for love and taste the suckiest things of love ,friendship.
i am changed.

and when i was lyingon the floor..when i was down on the dirt

where were u?? where were u?? when everything was falling apart
all my days spend by the handphone that never rang.
all i needed was a call that never came.
a text that i never recieved


the people i loved stayed...

i dont need people to survive...
but the one things true abt me.i will take care of the people i love
i wld take care of hem.
no matte how much they neglect me..
no matter how much they hurt me
cause they are myfamily and people i love
my friends.
they stood by me when i was in shit hole lot of crap

there are three things that are more impt than my own life

family,2nd family,love

to my step mom
you really hurt me yest and i learned my lesson
dont love someone too much
they hurt u in the end
love has the power to break somebody


its just a little late
i din have to wait so long
to not see all the people i care abt infront of me
maybe its too emo

but this people changed me

and i dont wanna lose them.

even if they move on.
they go on in their lives
ill always take care of them
ill always will be there

i dont need people to survive in ths world
but when i love i care.

a whole bunch of christmas pictures from 25th and today the 28th

an awesoem family pic near the tree.
great day but my christmas isnt complete yet haha
lots more of things to do!!!

nice family pic

yoyo and bobo

nice shot

youjing got us the red noses!!!!

some random shot of me and bohari

today the 28th memeks christmas!!!

the tradition .this how my family says good byes when they leave
they stand near the gate and wave haha

doing lame stuff.and i ws so tired so i just
posed for the pic like that

my cuzzins and fauzy!!!!divya!!!

in the night .at the christmas party at my house
for family.van came.but she had t leave early.
my cuzzins taking shot of them selves -.-

my bro and les...sweet.

my tution teachers kid.she is 5 and soo adorable

25th started with giving! we prvided food
for the old age home
nothing is good than charity

KL!

this was taken last year christmas .
the whole family
bro and les
sis and her husband
me and dad mum


me and patches...sooo adorable



my third darling
patches my uncles dog
he lives in KL.
the dogs soo freeking cute and intelligent





deco at sunway pyramid mall

me and my mum .outside sunway pyramid mall

at sunway.pretty nice mall.

at genting ont the second day

i am back from KL!!!!!

HEY GUYS I AM BACK!!!!

i loved shopping in KLwill post pictures later

i got memeks christmas gifts!

i got new shades.

got twilight the movie but not clear.

ill buy the original later

alot of other stufff

anyway i was like reqading new moon the whole ride to KL.

and when i was in the hotel.

i love the story so much.

i am soo deep in the story....

haha atika faster than me haha

we both are officially twilight saga fans.

i love it so muchhhhhhhhhhhh

the movie shld be good next year.

the reviews were so good!

all the way KRISTEN STEWART!

memeks cant wait to see u guys fro christmas...

got alot of things to share

love u all!

be back later

love this song to death

i heard that this song was picked by kristen stewart for the last scene!

it was in her ipod and she let the director listen to it.

she is sooo coool.i love this song so much.